July 28

Posted by on Jul 28, 2013 in Diary | 5 Comments
Permanent State of Reinvention

Permanent State of Re-Invention by @gapingvoid


Mad (2) Sad (3) Glad (9) Afraid (4).
Key points …
Mad at not having done some things I intended to do. Website building especially is behind intended schedule …
Sad that some things I did didn’t fulfill my need for well-being of all involved.
Sad about some losses in the far past I’ve been reminded of this weekend.
Glad about cleaning away several cubic feet of stuff I don’t need any more. Glad about a relaxed time at home, and about the heat. I love Heat.

Afraid of all the options coming up and that I’m not up to it…

Grateful that Niels Loew helped me get my .htacess to work, so that I could finally move my blog/website to trustartist.com. Yay! Niels is an amazing graphics and product guy. Get in touch with him if you need someone like that in Berlin!

[amazon asin=”B00BS03LL6″ template=”simpleimage”] “Wholehearted living is about engaging in our lives from a place of worthiness. It means cultivating the courage, compassion, and connection to wake up in the morning and think, No matter what gets done and how much is left undone, I am enough. It’s going to bed at night thinking, Yes, I am imperfect and vulnerable and sometimes afraid, but that doesn’t change the truth that I am also brave and worthy of love and belonging.” — Brene Brown


I started cleaning up a room in the flat where a lot of stuff has been kept according to the “everything I might want to look again in the future or don’t dare to look at now” rule. Now throwing everything away that doesn’t survive the “I’m actually planning to need this in the future” test. Surprised and glad that was 90% of the stuff. Some is really hard to face, and I’m proud I finally went through it. Some is really really lovely and making me happy to (now again consciously) keep it. For instance these hitch hiking tools 🙂

HitchHiker Tools

I was professionally equipped in the 90s.

Proud of Christine Neidhardt and me that our first open German Temenos lab was such a tremendous success. The next one is in September!

Proud that the Culture Fitness Training Steve Holyer and I have created happened and was so well received.

Proud of an invitation to speak at Agile Bodensee about The Heart of Transformation and hosting a Temenos lab the day before the conference.

Proud I was selected as a personal coach by a dear friend. Glad we’re successful and hoping to do more personal coaching in the future.


I’m afraid that the amazing community helping me to keep my innate inability to focus in check also works as a distraction. Sometimes I don’t succeed in giving everyone the attention I want to give.

I’m afraid that my generosity and curiosity distract me from creating revenue.


I have an idea to get support and am finally gathering enough trust in myself and my network (you…) to go ahead and do it.
Trust in my abilities and my calling is increasing. I am happy. I’m in!.


  1. Irene
    July 28, 2013



    • Olaf
      July 28, 2013

      Thank you… Hugs back!

  2. ellengrove
    July 28, 2013

    Welcome. And a big hug, of course.

  3. wizewerx
    July 29, 2013

    Welcome bro.

    You can generate lots of revenue without being neither generous nor curious , but it’s not nearly as much fun!

    Keep giving what you have to get what you want. The Universe is listening and it is conspiring even as you sleep, to help you get what you need.



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